Being Destroyed At Work and Beyond - How To Cope and Make It Through
"Destructive Destruction. Destroyed. Ruined. Toppled Over. No More. Oblige rated. Canceled. No Longer In Existence. Finished. Made Worthless. Done Done."
I would hope those are words that most of the readership of the FGCC blog can't relate to. I would pray that these aren't phenomenon that most in the FGCC community have direct experience with.
But I don't know. Maybe things occur more widespreadly than I could imagine. I hope not but I don't know.
Anyways, about a year ago or so, I wrote and published a couple prayers concerning being destroyed at work. At that time I was going through the get through. I had people verbally threatening me and promising to carry out their threats to do everything in their power to take me out. To destroy my career. To cancel my ability to earn a living. To do all that they could do to terminate everything that I had spent years working towards achieving.
I only publish prayers to help those who may be going through the same thing but dont know what to say or where to turn.
So in those previously published prayers, I asked God for help. For safe keeping. For protection. For the covering of the blood of Jesus to keep my enemies from completely destroying me. For the ability to maintain faith and peace during that treacherous storm.
While I heard the threats as these folks ensured that I heard their threats, I initially ignored them. I didn't think anyone could be that evil nor did I think anyone had that much power or influence. I knew I hadn't done anything to offend anyone to the point where they wanted me done done or at least so I thought. I knew I had enemies. I've always had at least a few jealous haters but I just figured that that just came with the territory of being me so I didn't take them seriously.
Enemies - Satan and His Network
I've always seen having enemies and haters as a blessing. I always thought only people who hadn't been bout nothing didn't have haters. If Jesus, Joel, Bishop Jakes, Joyce Meyers, Barack, Michelle all have had haters and enemies then I figured I was in good company.
Anywho, a couple years ago after Nipsey passed, I wrote about enemies being a blessing. That was the topic of his last tweet.
It seemed from that point forward every devil in hell and here on earth vowed to show me exactly why I shouldn't be going around being at peace and having happiness while having enemies. They sought to destroy me. They sought to prove to me why I should believe that enemies aren't a blessing.
As such, I felt attacks come at me from every which away. I mean from the top, bottom, front, back, left, right and side to side. I felt under spiritual at home, at church, at work, you name it I was under a complete spiritual attack. I felt like this world wanted me done and completely taken out. I knew it was spiritual warfare cause I hadn't done anything to anyone at all.
It got so bad and overwhelming, I'm like "damn Satan, if you gonna take me out, gone head and do it fully already. I'm tired. This slow drag is too much. Do what ya gotta do already now"
But thank the Lord, my God said "not my child!!!! not today, not eva!!!!!!!!!"
For the most part my enemies aren't the silent type. They want it to be known that they are attacking and seeking to destroy everything that I am, everything that I have, and everything that I seek to be. They enjoy seeing hurt, pain and evoking fear. They don't sugar honey iced tea and what around for a reaction. It's like they aren't satisfied unless I'm walking around sad, mad, defeated, depleted and on the verge of taking myself out. They use everything including technology as their weapons.
Understanding - Article Reasoning
I'm a person who doesn't bother anyone and stays to myself. So its traditionally been hard for me to understand the attacks on my person, my name, my character, my deeds.
It's been hard to understand if I seek the Lord, read the Word, stay prayed up, do right by my loved ones, mind my business, don't bother nobody, why anyone would want to cause me hurt and harm.
So I wanted to write this article to help shed light on how I have been able to make it through and as a result hopefully help others make it through the get through too.
Making It Through
My loves, the best way to make it through any situation or circumstance is with the reading of Word of God and through fasting and prayer.
When you start to read the Word of God, you'll get understanding for what you are going through and can have a better basis for finding solutions or for being able to stand steadfast as a result.
Being A Christian
One of the biggest misconceptions about being a Christian is that once you become a Christian your life becomes hunky dory, everyone loves you, and you'll just skip along in life without any worry or pain. Being a Christian is the most beautiful blessing in the world but is doesn't give you an immunity to all hurt and pain.
My loves once you become a Christian and start living for God you become an immediate target for the prince of this world who is Satan. In John 10:10 NIV it states "The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life and live it to the full."
Satan uses people and circumstances to kill our dreams and ambitions, to steal our peace, joy, loves, sense of self and happiness and he uses any and every demon in hell and on Earth to destroy us in order to keep us from fulfilling the will that God has set for our lives.
Prowling Roaring Lion
In 1 Peter 5:8-11 NIV it states "Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion look for someone to devour. Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that the family of believers throughout the world is undergoing the same kind of sufferings. And the God of all grace who call you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast. To him be the power for ever and ever. Amen."
One of the easiest ways to loose the fight is to not realize you're in a fight. In this life we as Christians are in a fight. We have an adversary who must be fought each day. We have an enemy who prowls around looking for someone to devour.
The second part of the verse in 1 Pet 5:9 says "believers throughout the world is undergoing the same kind of sufferings." That there lets you know to expect sufferings.
Now that you know to expect sufferings the second issue comes in that we don't know how long is a "little while" and once its starts to hurt and we feel the sufferings, we don't feel strong. We feel like giving up. We feel like throwing in the towel. We feel like a "little while" is too long of a while. But my loves if you keep reading the verse those feelings are normal.
The second half of the verse 1 Pet 5:10 reads God "will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast." In order to be made strong it means that you aren't currently strong. You've suffered. You've been made less than strong. You've been under attack. You've been in a fight. You've been weakened. You've been not as you were or want to be. But though you have been made weak through the sufferings caused by the enemy, God will make you firm or impenetrable and steadfast or unmovable and strong.
Expect The Attacks
My loves, expect to be attacked in a manner that is meant to break you. Expect to be attacked in a manner that is meant to destroy you. I can truly say that the attacks on my life since I first feel in love with Jesus a few years ago have been meant to break me into a million pieces. I've known God all my life but when I really feel in love with Jesus and really began wanting to live only for Him and have Him live in me every devil in hell as evidence through the works of people and circumstances here on Earth did and said and plotted and poked and pushed and provoked and tarnished and set a blaze every thing possible to destroy me. And if I'm being honest it hurt. I suppressed my feelings and pain for the longest time but it hurt. It felt unbearable. It felt crushing. It felt unfair. It felt unwarranted. It felt unjust. It felt like it was all just too darn much and I didn't deserve it.
Know that Satan ain't about what you deserve. He is about stopping the glory of God from being shown and anyone living in accordance with the word of God will be that devil's biggest target.
So my loves what I want you to take from this is you may get hurt emotionally, spiritually, financially, professionally, personally but what don't kill you will only make you stronger. I know it's cliché but it's true.
You all gotta learn how to abide in the shelter of the arms of God. Talk to Him throughout the day. Tell Him about your troubles.
Know that its okay to be weak. Know that it's okay to not have it all together all the time. Everybody and they momma may look at you like they looked at me and say "Oh my. WTH? I thought you was strong. You just gonna let them take you out. I thought you were stronger than that. I thought you could handle anything. I thought better of you." But these folks didn't know the depths of my pain nor the true strength of the attacks. Its one thing to be up against an enemy. Its another thing when the prince of this world has pulled his whole arsenal against you. These folks who critiqued me, didn't know that I was given it my all just to make it through the day. Before my stalker published my intimate moments they didn't know the tears that I cried and the prayers that I verbally prayed. They didn't know that everything in hell and on Earth was coming against me with hurricane force like winds and that it took everything in me to just to even attempt to stand up in a position to appear strong enough to fight. The mustard seed faith in the God that I served was all that I had to get up each and every day to give it one more try. So my loves don't let anyone tell you you can't feel vulnerable and weak or hurt or like giving up when the world is doing everything possible to knock the living daylights out of you. Don't let anyone shame you for feeling weak especially when you still giving it all you got.
Please note that 2 Cor 10:9 records the Lord as saying "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." So if God's power is make perfect in your weakness and He has given you sufficient grace to power through don't worry about your lack luster support group telling you all the shoulda woulda couldas.
My loves, I share my testimony with you because I want you to know that things may come against you but if you just don't give up and hold on to the fact that God is good, and know that no matter how much your enemies or all the forces of darkness try to destroy you, no matter how many sticks of dynamite they set off in your camp or grenades' they fling your way that everything we be alright in the end. Don't lose your faith. Don't lose your will to live. Don't lose you hope. Don't lose your dreams. Don't lose your peace. You are not alone and your feelings are valid.
I've been bent all the way backways but like a good rubber band or a solid palm tree, I didn't break. I've learned that I'm unbreakable. I've been hurt and am still hurt but I'm resting on the laurels of the word of the God that I serve and I believe if you find yourself under spiritual attack manifesting itself in all sorts of ungodly ways, so should you.
The Heat Of The Battle
One of the scriptures that I would often reference in the heat of the battle my loves is 2 Corinthians 4:8-9 NIV. It states "We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed but not in despair; persecuted but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed."
To that, add 2 Cor 4:16-18 which reads "Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is een but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary but what is unseen is eternal."
My loves if you are going through something that you don't understand and feel like its breaking you slowly but surely, I want you to write down these scriptures from 2 Corinthians and post them somewhere in your house and read them each day and remember that God will see you through.
Weapons and Vindication
I want to give you some more scriptures to read.
Isaiah 54:17 NIV states "no weapon formed against you will prevail, and you will refute every tongue that accuse you. This is the heritage of the servants of the Lord, and this is their vindication from me."
My loves, I used to pray for Gods vindication not realizing I already had it. I wanted everybody to know that this loser had hacked into my devices and was maintaining fake social media accounts in my likeness, I wanted everyone who had sought my termination at work to cry to me and seek my forgiveness, I wanted everyone who had plotted against me to publicly apologize. I wanted my vindication to come in the form of world wide announcements and public apologies. My loves, that may happen as a source of vindication at times but it didn't happen for me. I had to find peace that I would not get public vindication in the form of apologies or admission of their wrong doings.
If you read Isaiah 54:17 carefully, the fact that they attempted to destroy you, the fact that they attempted to destroy me, the fact that they tempted to turn everybody in this world against me, and didn't succeed is the vindication.
God's protection from their weapons, Gods protection and refute of their tongues, my loves is the vindication.
The fact that you weren't taken out, the fact that you still see the light of day, the fact that you still got food on the table and clothes on your back, the fact that you ain't went totally off the wall or gone completely postal is the vindication.
You don't need everyone and they momma to know that you didn't do what they said you did in the manner that they claimed. You don't need every half truth to be documented as a half truth that has been taken out of context, applied to something that it was never referencing and manipulated. You don't need the approval of nobody but the Lord.
As long as you good with God, my loves you are good.
If He has protected you and kept you alive in the path of destruction that is the vindication. You've been vindicated so stop going around trying to vindicate yourself. Stop going on trying to prove yourself. Stop going around worried about convincing folks who you are. You know who you are. God knows who you are. Be good with that. It's enough.
Be thankful to God for keeping you from all hurt and harm. He has protected you from attacks that you had no idea even occurred. That is how much He loves you.
For your homework, my loves I want you to go through and read some other chapters of the book of Psalms. I really want you all to get to know the Word of God. So please read Psalms 17, Psalms 18, Psalms 23, Psalms 27, Psalms 35, Psalms 37, Psalms 51, Psalms 55, Psalms 91.
Let's add to your homework reading list John chapters 15 to 17 and Ephesians 6:10-19.
If you have any other verses surrounding enemy attacks, plots of destruction, spiritual warfare, then list them in the comments below.
I want to conclude by saying, Satan is real. He aims to destroy the people of God. But God is greater. Put your trust in Him. Rely on Him. Pray to Him. Stay in faith and everything will be alright in the end. The righteous will not be forsaken nor his children begging for bread.
I love you. I want to challenge you to find a quiet place, a prayer closer, a safe space and pray. Pray for those who are being persecuted throughout the world for their believe and teachings on Christ. Pray for those who are experiencing spiritual attacks and don't know what to do or where to go. Pray for yourselves as well. Be blessed.